He's not perfect,

He's my hero. I've forgotten the girl I used to be. today i steped onto the scle 133 lbs, i hate my life yes i lost 2 lbs but its no where near good enough. 30 lbs and ill be perfect. okay so i guess i should jsut go onto a rant. i mean what else is there to say? okay well for starterstwo days ago was the first day i didnt b/p like at all, and i ate like fucking cow. you want to know my sins? well here they are
4 slices of cheese pizza
3 sodas(170 cal s each)
2 oreos
3 servings of choclate pudding(100 cals each)
see whenever i begin to eat i jsut cant stop myself i know i should be full but i seriously jsut can't stop myself when i start, so the only way i can is by not eating or purging.
anyways i woke up reaally late today and relized i was home lone first thing i do? oh go and binge of course b.c purging is so much easier when im alone and thats what i did. Anyone knows whats even more gross? is that my bf doesnt care he just sits on the phone and just doesnt say antyhing, im not sure if thats good or bad. oh so im in this new band im excited for it, they want me to share some songs with them but all of them are about my e.d or about my depression, and we are like this fun indiefolkish type of band so i dont think thatd really work...
oh well oh and my uncle is moving back in! great..(sarcasm) lets just say he's the reason why my whole e.d and self hate started.
i guess we'll jsut see how this goes, i really stoped cring along time ago so im not too worried.